no.368 140503 Thank you for letting me realize my anger towards my family

Housewarming brunch at a friend's house

Frustration.

I was frustrated at the fact that my parents were inconsiderate about something I had told them earlier this week. I had two schedules lined up for me - brunch at a friend's house and the first Mexico meeting. I got angry because they weren't on time when I told them that I needed to be at certain place by certain time. I told them I needed the car and it seemed like they totally ignored what I had said before. When they called me that they were gonna be late, I got angry. My parents running late meant I was gonna be late for my meeting. I wanted to be at church on time especially because I am in the leadership team. I also wanted to take the car because the team members are high school students and I know the majority won't be driving… I wanted to take them home afterwards. Anyways, we had to make some last minute changes and concluded that my parents will give me a ride to church instead of having myself driving.

While I was waiting for them, I realized how easy it was for me to get angry at my family. I hardly ever get mad at my friends or co-workers. I'm not sure if most people are like that though. I think in some degree, yes, because of the reason that it is your family. We are so comfortable and in a way, there is barely any etiquette amongst family relationships. It's an area that I need to definitely change but it's challenging.

When I think about today's situation, I do also think that I was being selfish in a way. Sometimes I think I'm such a selfish being and think that the world revolves around me. Originally, I told my parents to not go anywhere because I needed the car… yes, I was being super inconsiderate and selfish. I had my reasons… however, I should've brought it up more nicely.

Thankfully, I ended up arriving at the meeting right on time but I wasn't able to drive. I hope, that in the future when I get into an argument with my family, that I wouldn't let my emotions come out first. Rather, I want to logically think and ask the question, what would Jesus do or say in a situation like this.