no.168 131015 Thank you for being "true in my wandering"

In God's timing...

Since yesterday I am just not in a good mood. Well, it's not that I'm in a bad mood, but it's just that I don't know, I feel weird. Perhaps it's a pre-birthday syndrome (PBS), if there is such thing. I quickly did a google search for "PBS" and guess what, it exists! I'm not the only one who feels this way when your birthday is around the corner. Some people say that they want to spend their birthday miserably because they hate getting old. I feel them alright, but aging isn't so bad other than the getting more wrinkles around my eyes and my mouth and slowing down of my metabolism. Oh, and of course, the pressure of finding my future husband and getting married, haha...

I know I can't avoid getting wrinkles, because that would mean I need to stop smiling (which is impossible, or I would just be a miserable person). Metabolism is something that I don't need to worry about just yet because I am hungry all the time. About the issue of finding the "perfect man" for me... I am not as worried as before because I trust God with this. I used to get all worried, almost to the point where I started to feel anxious and questioning myself "what if I never find him?" Over time, my faith in God got more solidified, and thankfully it's still growing. As you can see with my blog, I love creating little projects for myself since it's fun for me. I already began a project for my future husband even before I started blogging. Oh actually, there are two... hehe! Wish I could tell you more about it but it's a top secret! I'm praying for my future husband and for us. I am certain that God will reveal me to him, and him to me at His perfect time.

After talking to a friend about what I'm going through and the way I feel, I am concluding that I am experiencing a quarter-life crisis. As he stated, I'm not where I thought I'd be at my age. When he mentioned this, I was like, oh my gosh, that's exactly how I feel right now. After spending some time praying and crying, I feel a bit better I think. Ah... no matter where I am in my life stage, I am thankful. I'm thankful that I am trying to seek God when things get hard, instead of trying to cling to the world and to following worldy advice. More than usual, I depended on God today. I'm happy that I did.